abandoned blog omg

it's been a month since i last updated my blog. so much for trying to blog everyday but i guess that won't happen to me LOL well at least i tried for 2 weeks.

anyway i just came back from my europe trip that i'd planned for months. time flies and i really can't believe that it's already over??? everything felt like a dream... disneyland, and my cruise from rome to barcelona. that shit was the bomb i must say! it was a great experience and i hope i could  relive it in the future. i caught the sunrise during the cruise and looking the day breaking right in the middle of the sea was easily the most impressive thing i've ever seen in my life. i would 100% do it again, with someone LOL traveling alone is lonely.

i could go on forever about my trip but i guess i'll save that for a different day where i actually can manage to organize all my memories LOL hopefully i will remember to blog about it. i've got like hundreds of photos and i don't know how to post them without crowding the post?

well i went for sparring today after 2 weeks of inactivity (not totally because i did frequently do air practice but that was for kali) and i got pummeled real bad. there was this guy i've never met before and his punches were so strong i didn't know how to get in there HAHA my trainer saw me and asked what was i waiting for and in my head i was like "how do i even land a punch without dying first?", but it was all good experience and practice! i have only 3 days left with the gym so i will cherish every moment and everything i've learnt. i was so knackered from the trip though, my brain was pretty slow today.

my dad's flying over on the 1st of june, that's like 5 days from now, then we'll be going to portugal, then back to newcastle, then we'll be heading home for good. this is tough, i'm finally leaving for good? i'll miss the gym, and the friends i've made here who have been there for me. they were good fun. but i'm pretty i'll come back, because i've got stuff to do here hehe. fingers and toes crossed.

tomorow i'll be meeting up with a friend to pay the quayside market a visit; that will be my last time i suppose. i'll miss the market too. argh this pains me.

well i guess this is it for now, here are some bonus photos from the trip that nobody cares about LOL but i'm posting them anyway...

 this was the disneyland castle!

 woody talking to baby buzz lightyear awwww how cute???

 sunrise at the horizon

oh right i also got my customized sticks?? i love them so much i gave the seller at 5-star rating! the sticks are pretty solid and sturdy too. heavier than the usual rattan sticks but i think it's good for arm training LOL got the handles wrapped and they're ready to go!

um ok i'm really tired so i'm gonna end here and go to bed now.

#exposedglasgow

oh.my.fucking.god.
i can't believe i actually saw them in real life! we even chatted for a bit and took pictures and hugged OMG!!! it went by so quickly i still couldn't believe what happened!! rose and rosie were so nice and sweet i wanna cry :<<<

we even took a selfie together and i asked them if they could video a shoutout to my 21 patisserie group and they did omg CRIES click HERE for the video! it was unbelievable. it was amazing!

the show was awesome, and as expected it was better than most tours! they were really funny in real life too, spontaneous, and sporty! it was an absolutely great experience and i'm happy i did it!

that's rose with a dick on her face. looking good eh. halfway through the show she facetimed shannon beveridge and she actually picked up the call OMG HAHAHAHA the ticket was totally totally worth it now! the audience was a great bunch too, although occasionally it was hard for me to grasp what they said because i suck at catching scottish accents LOL all was good though.

then today i decided to walk around before it's time to catch the train. i managed to try out the scottish cullen skink, which is a creamy smoked haddock soup with potatoes and onions. i know the name is weird but the soup was absolutely delicious. also had a fish pie for my main.

 cullen skink

i know the fish pie doesn't look very attractive in the photo. it was taken for a friend and i just decided to share it here anyway LOL no effort invested at all. today i was overloaded with potatoes because the fish pie was topped with cheddar mashed potatoes. i really enjoyed it though.

i took 25,748 steps today. i broke my own record of 24,542 steps during my trip to london last year. i'm proud of myself. and these steps include going up steep hills and shit. my right calf was aching but i still went to kali training anyway. very nice. oh i also saw a very cool coffee shop.

it was about the size of a phone booth i guess? but i was so amused! it says police but they were selling coffee and stuff. i passed by right after lunch so i couldn't get anything to drink.

oh yeah, i finally submitted all of my papers! yes, my dissertation, too! i'm officially free of academic burdens apart from the angst of waiting for the results. it is kinda worse because i'd be in malaysia. if shit goes down i'll have to fly back and i don't want that. so fingers and toes crossed no shit will go down.

and it's gonna be my final week at team phoenix next week. time really flies. i'm starting to feel really upset and i was just starting to learn more. i still wanna learn more and more things but unfortunately time doesn't allow. and monday is a bank holiday so the gym won't be open; it's as though time is mocking me :(

i'm sad.

sprained ankle

so i went for my first sparring session yesterday. it happened by force because my trainer was there and he asked me if i was going to join in the spar. i said i dunno maybe? mainly because i'm scared LOL then he asked me to put on shin pads and stick on some gloves. i thought it was just with him i was gonna spar with so i didn't mind since he is my trainer. after our turn, he announced to everyone in the room that it was my first time sparring so please be gentle with me because i don't have my gum shield. so that meant i must spar with other people LOL

i learnt a lot i must say, just need to remember to apply them under pressure. in my third spar i sprained my ankle LOL my luck. i sprained my left thumb last wednesday and it hasn't even recovered. i got to spar with the cool spinning kick guy so it was all good.

so today i decided to go out and get a gum shield and a pair of ankle wraps to display my dedication toward the art of muay thai. it took me like five times to get the fitting right and i think i somehow distorted the gum shield for retrying too many times HAHA but whatever works. i also got a foot bath so i can soak my tired feet. i don't have a bucket, so i went to poundland and got myself a storage box because the buckets they sell can't fit both my feet. cheap and practical.

das my feet.

oh yeah i'm attending the roses' tour on wednesday! omg time flies. guess what, right after i arrive newcastle from glasgow on thursday, i will rush to the 730pm kalisikaran class. yes, because i'm dedicated to the art. i'm sad it's about to be over.

anyway my dissertation is done!!! now all i need to do is proofread and edit then i can submit it into turnitin when the link comes up YAS

soundbar!

oh wow it's been 4 days since my last post haha! i honestly forgot about it for some reason.

anyway i did watch beauty and the beast for the 6th time on emma's birthday! the £19 ticket for the gallery was... well, ok i guess? unlimited soft drinks and nachos, i even got chocolates but how untimely because i'm trying to cut down sugar LOL i wouldn't say it's "free" unlimited snacks because i fucking paid an extra £12 for the "free" unlimited soft drinks and nachos. but hey, at least i asked for all the available toppings LOL happy birthday emma! on the 15th of april! LOL

then just yesterday i bought a soundbar for £50. i thought it'd be slimmer, but the box wasn't the only thing that's big.

i thought the image shown was close to the actual size but NO! it's only almost half the size of the actual speaker.

yes, you get to join them up and it'll look like the thing in the image on the box. i was surprised how big it was! now i just hope the box fits into the shipping box i'm getting to ship stuff back home, otherwise i'll have to find a way to take this back with me...

the sound is ok, but it occasionally breaks the sound although the connected device is pretty close, in fact, just right next to the speakers. it didn't disconnect, but the speaker just goes silent for a while then it comes back. gaming became nicer with loud sounds haha! can't wait to use this at home.

i finally resumed training today after 4 days of rest! it was great fun as always. i accidentally headbutted a guy and he accidentally hit my thumb. my nail was bleeding and now my left thumb just hurts like fuck i hope it isn't dislocated or some shit. and thanks to the 4 days rest and non-stop eating, i gained 1kg. well fuck.

university work is going ok but i'm really running out of bullshit to say. can somehow tell me how to fill in another 600 words??

easter holidays.

this afternoon's training session was TOUGH! i already have a bruise on my right leg but the trainer taught me a trick he called "thriller" which required me to hop forward on my right foot with my left leg kneeing the air. by the end of the session i was limping on my way back. i was tempted not to go to kali but thinking that it's a 4-day rest for me, i went anyway. it was great.

coming to think of it, my days at team phoenix is nearing the end. i don't want it to end :( i'm gonna buy some cards and write to the head coach and my personal trainer. honestly, i am very sad. if there is one reason to stay, this would be it, disregarding the constant unintentional misgendering because they know nothing about it LOL perhaps one day in the future i'll be able to come back and show them how much i have grown.

it's good friday tomorrow (today) and easter monday on, well, monday. the gym is open on saturday but i'm going to metrocentre so i won't be able to go. tuesday it is.

so after kali, i came back and decided to go for my seafood stew anyway. i wasn't supposed to because it's considered a heavy meal and i only finished eating around 1030pm. so i must stay awake until 230am. i wanted to do work but i guess not. i'm super tired. but i might watch a disney movie (no, not beauty and the beast) and have a cup of hot tea.

oh yeah! my studs arrived today! i thought they wouldn't. the last time i checked around 130pm earlier today they weren't there. i guess they came later in the afternoon. i am happy with the items! i shall put them on soon. maybe tomorrow.

ella gave birth omg CRIES

so the ultimate highlight is that ella gave birth today omg!!! how time flies CRIES.

anyway i went out to have a scone with a friend, then i did some grocery shopping. finally remembered to get seafood! i got me some scallops, lobster tails, and a chunk of cod. it sounds grand and yes my seafood stew will be a grand one HAHA but i can only have it on friday because i still have my 3-day old soup. hopefully it's still edible tomorrow. rule of thumb is, if it doesn't smell weird, it's ok to eat.

well my studs didn't arrive today, which i thought they would, so they'd better be here tomorrow because the reception is closing earlier due to easter holidays. BUT my other harem pants arrived and i'm so glad it doesn't need alteration because the last one cost me a bomb. it was a little bit long and the cuffs weren't as tight but i guess i can find a way around it.

i think it looks absolutely fabulous! now i just need to build up enough courage to wear it in public because i doubt i can do that with the rainbow one now that i think of it LOL it's great though. these pair bled like fuck when i washed it, at least it doesn't look like it's super washed. it's expected, i suppose.

hmmm then i went for training, both muay thai and kali. then i have training tomorrow at 12pm, and at 730pm. but no training on friday because it's good friday, and no training on monday because it's easter monday. hmm i don't like the feeling of having no training. i thought about going on saturday but then i remembered that i'm going to metrocentre. ugh. can't i postpone the visit? no, because it's emma's birthday. who knows, i might change my mind.

and these days i've been putting things off and now i need to write more words per day up until the 25th of april. but i'm writing now!!!

gourmet food and cute kitty!

i woke up very early today to catch the 1015am beauty and the beast. then i went for lunch with a friend whose birthday is tomorrow! happy birthday! it was a pretty fancy lunch and it's been quite some time since i last went there.

 my starter was smoked mackerel with some stuff and compressed cucumber, whatever that was. the cream was pretty tasty with the fish.

 my friend's starter was the mushroom tartlet with poached eggs and hollandaise sauce. like a benedict tartlet!

this was my main! lamb liver with mashed potatoes and a bunch of other stuff served with red wine jus. it was great! i went for a 3-course meal but i forgot to take a photo of the ganache and the banana mess my friend had. the dessert was my treat as her birthday gift because i am too lazy to think of what to give her LOL great friend i am.

my brother's girlfriend adopted a kitten from rspca and OMFG it is my favorite kind! like fully black with white paws! i call them socks. i am so envious, i've always wanted a cat :<

look at those eyes! the tuxedo! the socks! SUCH A CUTIE PIE!

then i went for training at night and right now, i'm just tired as fuck because i've been up since 8am. another meeting with a different friend tomorrow but i really need to get shit done...

just how many days already??

i actually do have things to blog about but i forgot to blog every. fucking. time??? this post is gonna be like bursts of days hahaha

ok rewind a few days ago. i finally got to try the beef long ribs from red's true barbecue i've been dying to try out!

it was actually not bad and they have like many different sauces to go with different things. the onions rings were super crispy but they were not as sweet as i would like onion rings to be. but 10 points for the crispiness. i struggled with picking between onion rings and mac and cheese, but i chose the former because i wouldn't want 2 soft things going together. maybe i'll try it the next time i go back for the wings.

on the same day i bought a book. well not sure if it's considered as buying since i didn't have to pay for it because i got the stamp card completely stamped. that was £10 off a purchase and the book was £9.99.

as if i don't have other books i haven't even started reading? that day i also received all the dvds i ordered. so apart from beauty and the beast, and the circle (which aren't out on dvd yet), i've got all the movies that emma watson starred in! at least as a main character.

sometimes i wonder why myself? (some of the movies were a little boring and tbh emma was a little kayu in some of these movies LOL don't kill me, i still love her very much, i do think she acted well in certain movies....) ANYWAY now i just need to figure out how to get these back to malaysia.

a couple of days later i went out for lunch. i was craving for cheong fun and korean food, so once again i had to pick between those two. but i went for chinese food anyway because cheong fun!

yes there was cheong fun but it came after i took this photo. i really liked the chicken feet hehe. so after lunch that day i went to sports direct to get the precision mitts because yokkao sells them for $104 (!!!) and the everlast ones from sports direct were on half price.

possibly not as tailored to muay thai training as yokkao's but hey, i ain't a pro yet so no complaining. £15 is about a quarter of $104, so why not? can't wait to train with someone!

and then i ordered a couple pairs of harem pants for traveling because i heard they are light and thin, and dry easily, unlike jeans.

i really like this pair but they have yet to arrive. i hope it arrives soon so i have time to send it for alteration but hopefully i wouldn't have to. the other pair though, has arrived today! YAY but it's super big and long (that's what she said HAHAHA jk)

i really love this rainbow one but it's BIG AS FUCK?? the pants itself cost £15 but i just sent it for alteration (because i really love it that much) and it costs £22, which surpasses the original price of the pants LOL fml. i'll think of it as a £37 pants instead, that'll make me feel better.

if all else fails, i'll just fuck it and take my jeans with me LOL

anyway i have training this evening! i've gained weight because i've been fixing my craving and it isn't a very wise thing to do hahahaha! plus, after training tonight i'll be getting a drink with a friend (all dem sugars) and tomorrow i'll be having lunch with a friend (and her friends) for her birthday. AND before the lunch we'll be watching beauty and the beast AGAIN, my 5th time tomorrow. well, i'll be visiting metrocenter this saturday (which is emma's birthday, btw) to watch it AGAINx2 for the 6th time. I KNOW, DON'T JUDGE ME. i'll also have a look in primark to see if they have the stuff my friend is looking for. of course, it is also a must to visit GAME to see if there's any interesting offer.

ahhh looks like my weight lost has to resume next week...

thus it is monday again...

so it's monday again. a new week has begun! i look forward to my weighing tomorrow LOL. come to think of it, it's already april 2017. how time flies. i still remember the first day i landed in newcastle like it was just yesterday. but that was almost 3 years ago. oh wow.

anyway, today i got up earlier than expected (as usual because of my shitty sleeping pattern), so i went out to print some stuff, submit my essay, and get some groceries. i bought more stuff than i originally intended to so i bore the consequences by carrying all the heavy shit back. i didn't even get to buy my seafood. or have a look at ear studs at claire's (i wonder if the discount voucher is still valid), or browse for books in waterstones because i have the stamp card fully stamped. i might do it on wednesday or thursday. this week's meal will be turkey and beans chilli.

then i went for training. i was super tired because i didn't sleep well, though i did take a nap on the floor but it wasn't enough i guess. ah it's my final month of training before i leave for good. i'm actually pretty sad about it. i suppose i've grown to love the gym. i came back and had tesco's chicken dinner, it was just, plain.

so i plan to watch beauty and the beast again. i know, i've said this like 10 times before but i really can't help it!!!! emma watson is completely captivating and absolutely beautiful. I AM IN LOVE. it's her birthday in like 12 days, so maybe i should watch it again on that day to celebrate her birthday HAHA. speaking of emma, i ordered all the dvds of the movies she starred in. LOL what an impulse but at least i've done it. i'll get the harry potter box set when i get back to malaysia. i hope beauty and the beast gets released in malaysia too, otherwise i'll have to ship it from amazon....

right, just another 3000 words to finish my dissertation! go go go !!

so i got a new fridge

right basically i didn't get a new drawer. i got a whole new fridge. and i when i was trying to turn on the fridge, i couldn't reach the switch at the back so i used the mop.

i broke the mop.

LOL seriously i'm breaking everything just months before i leave. i taped it up and it is still usable though. i emailed them about it, and i'm prepared to pay :(

yesterday after training my trainer gave me a shirt! i'm so happy CRIES a reward for all the bruises.

oh yeah yesterday i watched beauty and the beast AGAIN. TWICE. LOL I AM SERIOUSLY AN EMMA WATSON TRASH. there's more to that.

before the movie, i went to hiyou to get some biscuits and bumped into my friend from penang, whom i made dinner plans with. she talked to this worker lady who's from taiwan and my friend told her that i really love Hebe from S.H.E, and that she thought that I looked like Ella the first time she saw me. know what the worker lady said? she said i look "prettier" than Ella. seriously WTF HAHAHAHAHA that was so funny i had no words!! after i paid for stuff, i watched beauty and the beast for the 3rd time.

after the movie, i met up with the penang friend and discussed where to grab dinner. we wandered around and had a look at many restaurants. we passed by disney store and she insisted she would get me this discounted winnie the pooh plushie as my early birthday present. since it's a disney store, naturally i walked to the beauty and the beast section to have a look. BEING THE EMMA WATSON THAT I AM I BOUGHT THE POP VINYL FIGURE, THE ORIGINAL SOUNDTRACK AND AND AND....

 the winnie the pooh plushie.

 the figure and the cd at the side.

AND I FUCKING BOUGHT THIS BAG AS WELL LOL. what the flying fuck i walked around holding this bag like a true blue emma watson fan. i don't know if i actually felt embarrassed; i just thought it was very funny.

so in the end we had dinner at cabana but the portion was pretty small so we weren't full. we asked for the dessert menu and never actually ordered anything because i was thinking about the bread and butter pudding from turtle bay next door LOL we paid the bill and went out from cabana. being the indecisive people that we are, we ended not getting bread and butter pudding and agreed to discuss where to get dessert inside the mall because it's cold outside. we were talking and walking at the same time, for some reason we kept walking toward the cinema's direction (where i watched beauty and the beast earlier this day), and she was like "why are we walking to the cinema??" 

me: "because we're used to this route whenever we come up here!"

her: "omg this is the second time you've been here today..."

me: "yeah since we're here let's watch a movie again HAHAHA."

her: "i actually want to watch a movie but i dunno what to watch."

me: "let's watch beauty and the beast HAHAHA."

her: "are you serious? you just watched like, just now!"

me: "hahahhaa i really don't mind as long as i can watch emma."

her: "really? i don't mind either because i planned to watch in on 2D again anyway."

me: "YES but you have to buy the tickets because i think the person at the counter might recognize me, this time WITH AN EMMA WATSON BAG WTF"

her: "LOL DAMN SIASUI."

that's how i ended up watching beauty and the beast two times yesterday. but i must say emma watson is absolutely beautiful. i will watch it again i swear. and buy the dvd. we had a little trouble buying the tickets; we kind of booked our own seats so we couldn't buy them again, so we bought a row up and hoped that no one would buy the seats we originally selected because we were gonna sit in them. but then four people did show up and looked for their seats (the ones we were sitting in), OOPS but they were kind enough to let us have it and they sat beside us instead. sorry LOL

yeah, that's the story for yesterday and today. did all the cleaning today so i don't have to do it tomorrow. yay!

super tired

today was a tiring tiring day. i made curry for lunch, and went out to get more cords to make my cobra knot. not only i failed to make a correct knot (though it's still decent for a safety "chain"), my skin peeled off thanks to the friction while i pull the cords to tighten the knot. i have a spare piece of cord, i'll see if i can make the correct knot the next time.

 i actually had to peel the top layer off because it was hanging....

and there! put on carabiner and it's ready to be hung on my jeans. i hope it's useful. i don't want my stuff getting stolen everywhere i go. in fact, i personally think it's very smart HAHA.

oh yeah. remember i said something about the international travel adapter, handmade braided clothesline, and a super slim power bank?

 this thing is actually pretty cool. and for an international adapter, it doesn't feel too heavy for what it does. now i can go anywhere in the world! well, 220 countries to be exact.

 slide those stuff and the plugs come right out.

 my handmade clothesline with its carabiner! good quality carabiners, too. i might swap it with my safety chain one. the clothesline is about 150cm in length. this looks pretty good eh.

 super slim power bank and it's pink LOL

and it's not very big as well. it fits in my money belt; not too bulky. it's perfect if i keep spending all my cash and thinning down the belt to make space for it LOL

i'm really tired. i need to handwash all my clothes for 3-4 days otherwise i won't have enough pants and uniform to wear to training. and i also need to do work... let's get back to that..

hungry

it's 1203am right now and i'm feeling a little bit hungry. so tempted to make tea and dunk biscuits but i'm worried that tea might ruin my sleep because of the caffeine... help? or maybe i should just finish the rotting banana so i can move on to the new comb of bananas.

my work is going according to plan, i'm happy. now i just have to worry about the others for a little while more... also need to plan my trip in detail because i know how lost i can be. i also made a travel clothesline and bought an international travel adapter which is pretty cool. i'll upload a photo tomorrow if i didn't forget. i also bought a super slim power bank and it fits in my money belt which is great news.

time flies it's a little scary. but i guess it's normal.

broke the freezer drawer.

this was such a stupid situation. so i was trying to clear up my freezer drawer to make space for my burger patty, i removed the drawer to rearrange the stuff inside and i noticed that there were so much ice in and around the drawer. i gave it a quick wash to clean it out. before i put in the drawer, i saw that the first drawer was so covered in ice, the ice was so thick the drawer was jammed shut. there was nothing but ice in the drawer and i wondered how my flatmate managed to keep food without freezing it. since i was clearing up the ice anyway, i tried removing the chunks of ice to see if i could get the drawer out. i smashed the ice a couple of times, tried pulling the drawer out for a couple of times... and on my final attempt, i thought that i'd removed enough ice and that if i pulled hard enough the drawer would push through the ice. i exerted a little extra bit of force and.... the handle broke LOL

see those cracks?? shards of ice flew everywhere and a piece of the drawer flew off somewhere i couldn't see. well, i confessed my sins to the guy at the reception to make sure that my flatmates do not pay for my mistakes hahaha!! this freezer is one dumbass fucker i tell you; last year i managed to scrape off a bucket of ice. this time the ice was so thick the door can't even shut completely AND STILL is able to freeze shit up. doing its job right i guess.

somewhere in the process of breaking things, i somehow cut myself.

maybe it's the revenge of the ice, or the drawer. it could be that damn piece of drawer that broke off. oh well. the maintenance people will come and have a look on monday.

i had only one mango for dinner. i thought it would be enough but i was so wrong. i was organizing my room and wanted to get rid of some stuff, i asked a friend if she wanted some extra toilet rolls and toilet fresheners. she said yes so i sent them over and ended up having some wasabi peas, a bowl of instant tomyam noodles (seriously wtf) and half a cup of really weird chinese rose herbal drink AT 11PM. i felt (feel) so bad i'm not gonna sleep until it's past 3am, well 4am because daylight savings time just jumped hehe. from 1259am to 2am. pretty cool.

oh and apparently the european market is on again!!! i shall have a look on monday after helping a coursemate with her dissertation (as a participant for her research). i'm also going to the quayside market (again, i know) tomorrow. i mean, how many sundays left do i have anyway?

it's 3am now, i have another hour to go. maybe i'll give dying reborn a try and hopefully that won't take my sleep away...

swept off the floor!

so today i had training in the morning at 1130am, and it was about kick-catching lessons and how to defend and respond to the kick. so my trainer demonstrated it on me. he caught my right kick, pushed my head down so my weight went sideways, and he swept my foot off the ground! i fell on the floor on my side and the world spun for 2 seconds. HAHA what a thrilling experience. given my weight, the fall was probably quite hard because it took me like a minute to recover hahahaha

after the class, i was hungry so i wondered if i should try the pizza at this cafe that's on the way back. it was a struggle because i just finished training??? i asked a friend and she said YES PIZZA so i went for it anyway. it wasn't a slice of pizza, IT WAS A WHOLE DAMN PIZZA.

i must say though, this margherita pizza was really nice! the base was not the usual thick ones like those you find at pizza hut or dominos, so it doesn't fill you up with dough. would definitely recommend and go back. that was pineapple juice at the back. hmm now i want calamari rings.

anyway my flatmate was singing at 4am and that woke me up. i knocked on the wall and thankfully she lowered her voice. maybe she was half drunk cause i heard her leave around 1030pm last night. i hope it never happens again. well i won't be here much longer though...

oh yeah! i got earth defense force 2 on both my vitas so i can play it on ad hoc with a friend! it is a game about giant insects invading earth and we've gotta defend earth! hence, earth defense force LOL i played it once on a friend's computer and i really enjoyed it. now i can enjoy it again!

i'm trying to get more work done but i guess i'm gonna have tea and biscuits now.

kalisikaran!

so i went to my first kalisikaran class today. everything looked so complicated but then when i got the hang of it, it looked so damn cool!! they tell me i'm a quick and clever learner HEHE i'm proud of myself. i guess i'll consider going to all the classes before i go back to malaysia. oh during muay thai, my partner said that my right punch is evil and she wouldn't wanna be hit by that HAHA i'm glad i'm glad! i'm feeling a little sad now thinking about going home for good :( i'll upgrade my membership for april.

so i booked my disneyland paris tickets WOOOO now i have to worry about not being able to court them disney princesses (especially belle) because i won't be able to communicate with them LOL just kidding. i'll just fumble my way through the whole trip.

hmm what else? oh i made burger patty with rice and fried egg for lunch today! i must say the beef's pretty tasty but i think i should have taken it out of the oven earlier. it could have been super tender and juicy MMMM i have some meat left for tomorrow. i'll make it again after my training. curry sauce for tomorrow's hehe.

and the fucking final fantasy x chocobo race. worst. fucking. thing. everrrrr. UGH

booking for travel is tough!

traveling between countries is tougher than i expected!! i salute the people who are able to go around between countries. even booking for transport is tough to handle! honestly now i just hope nothing goes wrong during the trip although it's about a month away. but hey! it's solo time! time to learn so food words in different languages and not make a fool out of myself.

well i managed to do some restructuring for my dissertation so i don't feel too bad. i'll continue writing more tomorrow and i hope it will be done before the middle of april. i have a good feeling about this.

oh the melon i bought the other day? i had a slice after i got back from muay thai. it was so sweet i ended up having about half of the melon. thankfully it isn't very big. i'm happy because i picked a sweet melon. i picked the roughest one and it turned out to be the sweet one hehe right move.

but right now, i really feel like having fried rice. i had nestum but it wasn't enough. i'll have proper lunch tomorrow.

progress on my final fantasy! for the first time i really wanna get their ultimate weapon so i'm putting so much effort into getting the necessary key items. omg what a grind to be honest. but at least i got anima and magus sisters! they're so strong i was so amazed the first time i used them. i'll keep going!!!

and i really need to properly wash my cup???

not dead enough.

so i skipped my lecture today because i was playing games with my friend and i accidentally swore when her mom was there LOL sorry aunty. it was pictionary and she drew something i really couldn't understand what she was drawing HAHAHA sorry sorry.

anyway i received the scrawl board game today! it needs at least 4 players to play so i guess i'll have to hang on to it for now until i go back.

it looked like a great deal of fun when i was watching them play the game in rosie's video! check it out: ROSIE'S VIDEO

then i had to go out for dinner and play! i went back to tapas revolution because i love spanish food. i finally got to try out crema catalana, and i think that kinda wrecked my sugar levels.

their tortillas de patatas with aioli is brilliant!! one of my favorite tapas to date, really.

 paella valenciana! i also love paella. still can't find the best arroz negro that beats the one from salvador and amanda though.

crema catalana!! i liked it. it sort of resembles a creme brulee but it's tangier than creme brulee. it's nice! but if i had to pick one of the two i prefer creme brulee HAHA but again, they are different things altogether.

then i went to watch the play. during the interval, i bought a small tub of cookies and cream ice cream. so i was fucked all over again with the sugar level.

the fact that it doesn't show a detailed nutrient information made everything worse for me. but hey! that's it i suppose until i go for my europe trip (hopefully). i came back after the show, decided to reorganize some stuff i have and get rid of those that i don't need. so i got rid of my box of sugar. from now on, only milk in my tea, no sugar!! except for prepared drinks like milo or milk tea because sugar is already in there anyway. but only every other day i'll have one.

i got the weighing scale! my first weighing in will be tomorrow and i'll see if there is any changes in 4 weeks. wish me luck! gotta start my dissertation soon...

sunday sunday...

so i went to the quayside market to have pad thai again. OMG IT WAS SO GOOD and this time i managed to finish it without spilling it all over the place LOL because i was alone. then it started drizzling so i stood there eating in the rain. then i had a flat white. wanted something sweet but didn't actually get anything.

then i went buying groceries and got myself a nice round galia melon and a large mango life's great. also, do not buy zero sugar aloe vera drink because it tastes super weird.

i just remembered that i have a play to watch tomorrow so i guess i'll be going to tuesday's muay thai instead. whoa that means i have training 4 days in a row! i also bought a scale to track my progress LOL i hope i don't give up half way. i've been eating more since i started more training?? we'll keep track.

also, tomorrow is the start of dissertation writing :( but right now i'm still playing with my final fantasy x. and whoa i must say yojimbo is cool af.

beauty and the beast x2

so i watched beauty and the beast twice in a row yesterday. EMMA WATSON IS THE GIRL OF MY DREAMS!!! SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL although her acting is a little bit... kayu. LOL soz BUT SHE IS REALLY BEAUTIFUL i can't emphasize enough! i had so much sugar yesterday though. and mcd at 1230am? wtf was i thinking????? i regret them so much!! what's training for? i'm planning to lose weight but here i am craving for fried chicken and mac and cheese... i wonder what does that mean?

i'm playing final fantasy x, and now i see the story in a new light, with new pair of eyes. so touching :( and the music makes me sad. even right now, i'm tearing up watching the scenes omg CRIES. also need to stop myself from buying games. i just ordered scrawl board game though HAHA it looked like so much fun in rosie's video so i decided to buy it. i can't wait to play it with my friends. and the spaceship game omg LOL i need to look for it in my purchased list on app store.

i feel like as we grow older, we need to find time to meet up with friends. i'll try asking if we should all pick a set day of the month to meet up at least once. time flies so quickly it scares me. i hope in the future we keep in frequent contact.

anyway i need to start writing up my dissertation starting monday. it needs to be completed by the 25th of april because i've got other stuff to do. and i also need to plan for my trip so my dad knows. maybe i'll do that tomorrow, on the final day of chilling.

OUCH

i think i sort of injured myself during muay thai today :( my left shoulder feels weird. i hope i can sleep it off and train as usual tomorrow.

i have to go see my supervisor at 11am, and my training is at 12pm LOL i told her i will have to wear my training attire to go see her and she said it's fine. so i hope it will be fine.

i also plan to go on a 3 week europe trip. i hope it will come true because it has always been my dream, though this trip is a scaled down version of what i truly desire. i don't know? i just really wish it would happen. fingers and toes crossed. i'll discuss with my dad.

oh i started play final fantasy x again! on the expert grid hahaha so far so good. this time i'm using the strategy guide so that i can get the rare and hidden items. i also got dying reborn and siralim 2. can't wait to try them out! oh toukiden 2 demo, as well.

i've been sleeping at 430am for 3 days in a row so today i will go to bed latest at 130am. my body has no energy and my punches were shit!!! unacceptable. i need a proper sleep. tomorrow is starting early anyway.

time really flies.

2017 bucket list!

the story is, i forgot again. i guess it's a sign that my life is becoming more and more dull that i don't really have anything to talk about in my blog LOL on the bright side, i completed steins;gate so i guess i deserve an applause?? i sacrificed two days worth of sleep and a 9am lecture to complete the damn game.the story was so mind boggling it keeps me thinking and wondering. so many time traveling theories as well, very interesting!

for some reason i'm seeing a lot of new games for vita and i can't wait to try them all out! like dying reborn, siralim 2, and some other stuff. i never regretted getting a second vita! it's time to top up my US account wallet again. i'm on to the legend of heroes: trails of cold steel now, but i'm very tempted to start final fantasy x again. i guess i should because why not?

i made japanese curry for dinner. it was pretty good, and i've got tons left for lunch tomorrow and the day after. i don't think i feel very full so i might have a snack in about half an hour. actually, i'm not very sure??

i really want to open a cafe. i gave it some research and whoa it takes around RM500,000 to RM600,000, that's about £100,000 to open a cafe, the amount includes keeping it open for 12 months. i have so many things to do with the cafe; i want it to be an event space, and i want it to be a place to help the needy. but i guess it takes a lot of money to help people. i hope i'll get there some day, soon. i guess right now i just need to focus on getting out of uni...

i also have a bucket list of things i want to complete in 2017! one main thing is to get my self a bike license so i can ride cool bikes. then it's assembling my gundam models... then volunteer for a charity. of course, getting myself a job, as well... and joining a muay thai gym. oh, and building my duel disk! just a couple of major things and loads of minor things but they all matter to me so yeah.

can someone give me RM600,00 so i can open a cafe???

breaking out the binary!

i was a panelist for a discussion today. it was very informative and i've learnt loads of new stuff. a little long to explain everything here but the conclusion was we're all trash spreading bullshit HAHA in a good way. and it's all capitalism doing shit and gendered clothing are pointless. queer representation in films are not good enough and we should have more people from a group play the character of a person from that particular group. i also saw someone who wore the same gryffindor hoodie i was wearing LOL what a coincidence.

the discussion ended around 645pm but i stuck around to wait for my friend to come back. it was around 730pm when they got back and i was starving. we ended up parting ways at the newcastle station and on my way back i stopped by at a curry place to get my goan fish curry with pilau rice for dinner. i wanted fish and chips though, but i thought of the curry and went for that instead. i was so full and i felt so bad for eating so much over the weekend. it feels like i negated the whole week's worth of muay thai classes. but that's probably just me.

because i was so full i didn't want to come back yet, i dropped by at my friend's place so stand around literally. and i stood for about 2 hours. also got free teas from her LOL nice. i always steal food from her anyway. i bought her maryland cookies so i don't feel too bad HAHA

right, now i'm gonna write up my food plan for the week and stick with it and see if it helps. i've been eating too much and i feel bad. it's also not very healthy for my stomach. i also plan not to eat out for the week.

it just hit 12am. happy monday!

nothing happened today.

i thought i was going to the library today but it didn't happen. i woke up around 540am because of a bad dream, and i couldn't go back to sleep till it's like 840am. then i woke up again around 12pm. what a tiring day. all i did was have lunch, play games for hours, watch videos, have dinner, have ice cream. i have ice cream right in front of me. i think i ate so much today it negated all my muay thai. ugh.

yesterday when i woke up, the first thing i did was check my phone. i got a text from my cucumber friend and it said something like she woke up at 849am. i checked my time and it was 849am. LOL it took exactly 8 hours for that to happen because of time differences. how cool was that?

and i feel so lost about my dissertation because my supervisor hasn't given me a comment on my draft and plan. actually i think i said this before LOL never mind. i have a panel discussion tomorrow and i hope i don't make an ass out of myself.

also, i bought a second hand 8gb vita memory card for my US account off amazon. DON'T FRET, i've got a £15 gift card thanks to my survey taking effort. so i paid about £8 for an 8gb memory card. the current one i have is 4gb and it's already almost full. i think it's a good buy. i also finished extreme mode on gundam breaker 3. main story and dlc. so i unlocked newtype difficulty which i plan to play (everything, again) after i finish other games. especially steins;gate.

right. now i'll have my ice cream and watch videos and worry about my dissertation.

and again?

at this point i genuinely don't know if i actually blogged yesterday. but i doubt i did because i don't remember typing anything in? so maybe not.

anyway at this very moment, i'm at the library trying to "do some work". everyone knows how that goes. so no, nothing much has been done.

i did my second muay thai personal training session today, i could totally feel the stuff from yesterday because it felt like i haven't fully regained my power. my punches weren't as powerful as yesterdays. BUT I WILL IMPROVE. also resisted buying krispy kreme donuts. i'm proud.

oh my gryffindor wall plaque arrived! i'm so happy!

the packaging.

 in the box!

on my notice board! it's actually held up by two thumb tacks and it's heavier than it seems. i hope it doesn't fall off the board and drop on my cups and break them at midnight and freaking me out thinking that it's a ghost of something. but yeah it's great.

i don't what made me forget but the student union's starbucks hot chocolate is shit! why did i go back? but the good thing is i didn't finish because it sucked so much so there, lesser calories.

and also i haven't decided what's for dinner.

i forgot again?

i think i forgot to blog again yesterday. things are beginning to slip my mind recently. possibly a little to occupied by stuff going on in life. i also really need to start doing my uni assignments otherwise i'd be doomed. but i plan to start tomorrow after i nap after my first muay thai personal training. excited!

well yeah nothing happened today really. i just sat around until it's time for me to go to muay thai. the person i partnered with said my techniques were pretty mint, that coming from someone who won fights hehe feeling pretty cool about it. got some tips on how to do a better left kick, too.

then i came back and had a super late dinner. the clam miso soup was pretty nice. and also finished up my leftover veggies. i'll have to figure out what's for lunch and dinner tomorrow. i've got rice so maybe fry an egg or something. i'll decide tomorrow.

let's see... maybe tomorrow i'll start with searching for articles for my assignments. oh shit and also my dissertation. i feel so tired just thinking about it. but it will all be over soon. i'll just wait for my supervisor to reply before i resume anything so i'll focus on language and meaning first.

and i bet £10 most of the people in the world will agree that language is for communication. and is persimmon a citrus fruit??

again, short post happy eyes!

saturday and sunday and monday

like none of you have noticed, i've missed blogging for 2 days. i couldn't blog because i was in london for the women's march! there were tons of photos so i gave up blogging, i didn't think i could blog with such a small screen anyway.

alright on to saturday, i got to london, found the airbnb place i booked, found out that the "room" wasn't even a proper room. the "room" was divided by partitions it almost felt like a warehouse make-do room. if it was cheaper i really wouldn't mind but i paid about the same amount for the room in brixton and that was a better room despite having to go up 4 flight of stairs; it was at least a good workout. well, after checking in i went to grab food from borough market because i still had hours before the play started. i had buffalo burger from the exotic meats stall because it was "today's special", then i had fried calamari rings which cost £7. it was super tasty but super expensive.

 i really love markets and its liveliness.

it looked just a like an ordinary burger but i loved it very much. why not kangaroo burger?? because ive had it before, that's why. after having lunch, i went to locate the theater. i found the theater and fortunately there was a costa just beside it so i could kill time by having hot chocolate and reading.

not for show. i managed to read like 14 pages. it was a heavy book, ok??

it was a pretty cool place. love the seating arrangement and love how close the stage was. opposite the theater was a bookshop where i bought some (more) books on philosophy.

after visiting the bookshop, i went to caffe nero to get tea and continued reading. it was a book i just got from the bookshop.  then the time came for me to catch a play- "a midsummer night's dream". ...it was bizarre. just weird. i guess it's supposed to be weird LOL google it up. after the play i kinda just went back to the bnb, showered and slept.

on sunday, i got to the march venue. i was early so nothing much was on yet but people were showing up. i was really hungry; i wanted soup and bread (especially mushroom soup and garlic bread omg) so bad but nowhere sold it. i ended up getting a chipotle chicken and avocado wrap and green tea. the pre-march events were pretty cool, there were singers and talks and discussions on women's rights and refugee's rights and stuff. annie lennox and the mayor of london was also there to lead the march. pretty cool.

 #March4Women

this is the mayor of london. he gave a speech and i remember he quoted, "how can all succeed if half of us held back?", so that kinda struck me. i'll keep that in mind. i made an acquaintance, he brought his trans and lgbt flag with him and shared the sign and the rainbow flag with me, pretty nice.

 ignore my stupid face,

that was the sign! i know it looks bright and sunny but toward the end of the march it poured like shit. we were all drenched but he stood on the bench with his trans flag waving proud in the wind and rain. i joined him in waving the rainbow flag on the bench and many people requested photos of him. why not me? i dunno, they probably had me in the photo anyway since i was beside him LOL pretty proud. i'm sure i looked like shit in all the random photos. didn't see many asians though.

 before the march started.

we got the tower bridge closed just for the march! so i'm happy to have taken part in this cause. after the march we parted ways. i went to chinatown to get myself a nice tasty plate of roasted duck rice because my dad suggested that i should and i agreed with him.

this is honestly the best roasted duck rice i've ever eaten in my life! i asked for a drumstick. i was very tempted to eat all the fatty skin but i didn't. i gave them a good respectful munch before leaving them on the plate along with the bones. sorry fats. the rice was also very tasty, i wonder why?

i got to the train station about 4 hours before my train. my train was at 9pm so i wandered around. as usual, i visited the platform 9 3/4 shop. yes the one in harry potter. i wanted to get the hogwarts wall plaque but they sold out! i didn't wanna ask again so i bought the gryffindor wall plaque online. it might arrive this week!! excited! read throughout most of the train journey and i arrived in newcastle around 1220am, took uber back, showered and went to bed.

aaaaaand today, monday. i went to the lecture at 3pm. went to muay thai at 6pm. successfully discussed a good time for me to do the muay thai personal training!! i'm starting this week so i hope i won't die before then. don't forget i've got uni work to do as well.

after training, i walked to the nearest tesco along the way and got 2 pieces of salmon for £0.39 each! that's a fucking bargain if you asked me! the original price was £2.49 or something like that. they're expiring today but fuck it i'm gonna make them for dinner tomorrow along with the cheap expired mangetout i bought as well. they'll just have to wait.

also, i got some of my singing voice back! that makes me happy. it sucks not being able to sing for a week. but i'll slowly get it back! whoa long post. shit, 9am lecture tomorrow. also, i'm now rank 1 on gundam breaker 3's bounty hunting.