Apparently

It seems that I have never come to terms with my own feelings.
It was simple. Too simple I over-interpreted it.
I denied what stirred inside me.
But this time around I want to accept it; a punch right at my face.
The complexity of this simplicity is too overwhelming I need time to get out of denial.
Yes, I was in denial.
I thought I could walk away; I thought I could throw it all away.
Forget about it.
Just too bad.

In all weirdness

Wow for about 2 months i didnt update my blog hahaha
but its 2am now when i started typing this

these days i just feel like i wanna drive in the middle of the night and enjoy the empty streets
listening to music and start thinking about life and things around me

and im getting broke because of all the photobooks im buying wtf
3 photobooks from fansite and 1 memorial photobook zzz
and even 1 fanclub shirt
but its ok, i save for all those LOL

btw, asia super showcase(ASS) got postponed (soon-to-be cancelled zzz) like TWO fucking days before the actual event,
seriously ASS man!
they blame it on elections and the security of the nation
like wtf malaysia very safe ok, even rally also book stadium although is a bit jam
this event management company very famous for postpones and cancellations zzz
many ppl complain before maybe they are used to it already nvm lo
i can't see my Girls' Generation because of them UGH

S.H.E coming to hold a concert in july :D
and it's exactly on my birthday TT
WHEN IS MY BIRTHDAY??
ok nobody will answer because nobody is reading zzz but i still post for fun
it's 20th july hehehehehe

recently i joined a gym
this gym has punching bag which is something i really like because i can go and punch whenever i feel angry
but the thing is, if i punch punch punch, my finger skin will terkopek and hurts like hell when i bath zzzz
so im getting a punching glove soon
quite interesting

and also i got my other wisdom tooth removed 1 week ago,
my face swollen like kena punch (karma?)
but now already reduce by alot
shit make me unable to sing -.-.-.-.-!!!
recently ok abit

errrrr what else?
oh yeah im in my final semester of foundation
so friggin busy
so many events to do but so little time and stuck with the same people even for different subject D;
nvm, it's gonna be over.. SOON
after that im gonna chase after my dreams of languages and arts

one more is,
i think it's coming back again :C
this weird feeling zzz
i hope it goes away soon!

and my latest korean exam got 95 hehehe show off here nobody see anyway