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today was a very very long day.
my first lecture of the day was at 9am. thankfully, the subject is interesting enough for me to keep listening to the lecturer. i even think this module can cause a mild existential crisis with all the mind vs. body thing, is the world only made of matter? or is everything just what we perceive to be true?? and we even talked about the existence (or lack thereof) of the mind. or the only thing we can be sure about is our own existence as long as we have thoughts and the ability to think. even if this is all a dream, because our brain is thinking during a dream, we still exist. descartes said, "i think thereof i am". i think it was descartes. the lecture caused me a massive headache and an existential crisis.

i tried taking a nap before my 3pm class but i failed. the floor was too cold. so i went to this 4pm language and meaning seminar, talking about concreteness (as in how tangible something is) and one of the nouns we had to justify was "woman". one thing though, is this in a very cisnormative sense?? like, what constitutes a woman? if it's tangible i assume it's body parts? but if you are talking about arms and legs, wouldn't ALL humans have that?? i just think what makes a woman a woman is how comfortable you are identifying as much. that means it's not tangible anymore is it??? i might just email the lecturer and ask. hopefully she won't freak out LOL (i just emailed her halfway through blogging)

oh i got virtue's last reward in my mailbox today hahaha i have a feeling i'll be getting a game every day until friday. it's like a gift from myself to myself and of course it is i, who paid for them. i read online about the game and apparently this game has like 24 endings, and i have to play it on the hardest difficulty to unlock all of the endings hahaha fuck my eyeballs.

in my mailbox.

and i finally restarted my muay thai membership! i fell on my ass 5 times because we had this move where we've got to hold the partner's leg and turn or jump, while bouncing on the other leg. my ass was too heavy i fell 5 times. but that wasn't the most painful part. after we learnt a foot sweeping move (very cool move, it's called a monk bla bla sweep the long or something, translated from thai), my partner missed the side of my foot and stepped ON my foot instead. you know the feeling when your skin on the top side of your foot almost tore off because of how soft it is? that's how i felt. it even left a bruise omg.

it's the weird spots on the left. what the fuck my foot also looks dry as fuck. i need to moisturize. i also got the 2017 awesome t-shirt! i feel pretty awesome about it.

i mean, isn't this awesome?? team phoenix ftw.

oh yeah, i'll also be heading to london on the 4th of march to attend the gender equality march called "march4women" on the 5th. i know it could be a little bit trans-erasing (hopefully not) but hey, even if it's not my time yet, don't mean that i shouldn't support women eh? i wanted to go for the harry potter studio tour again but it's sold out on the 4th and the 5th omfg what is this hell??? i was really looking forward to butterbeer but i guess it wasn't meant to be. so i had to find another way to kill day one, and i ended up booking a ticket for the "a midsummer night's dream" play. i wanted "hamlet" but it's all sold out. WHY IS EVERYTHING SOLD OUT WHEN I'M GOING??? i might get the hogwarts wall plaque before my train back. or i could order it online and have it delivered to me for free, and i get a free box to put in my luggage so it doesn't break when i take it back with me. hmmm i'll see again.

also i hope i'll be able to attend pride in london on the 8th of july! I HOPE!!!

and i hope i'll get to wake up in time tomorrow to watch "a monster calls". i'm knackered.