chinese new year's eve.

it is the eve of chinese new year. everyone's home with their families having their reunion dinners and exchanging stories yet i'm here alone, in the UK with noone to celebrate this day with. my "reunion" dinner was a soup made from yesterday's leftovers and it wasn't very tasty because of the coconut milk, not "santan" though, coconut milk as in a substitute for milk, not coconut cream. i should get soy milk again next time, i'll keep the coconut milk for curries. at least i'll be having dinner with my ex...... flatmate tomorrow. we're going for indian cuisine because she has this half price offer hahaha.

i had to do my laundry today (i usually do it on saturdays) because i don't wanna do it late at night tomorrow after the dinner. i guess that's no problem now. when i went downstairs i checked my mailbox and my most wanted game still hasn't arrived yet :( i guess i'll wait till monday or tuesday before i contact the seller about the item.

speaking of games, omg lololol i started this game called virtue's last reward, right? i have to say it's really twisted where everybody dies one by one and the player has got to solve the mystery and puzzles and shit. at the end of each round the player has to vote on betraying or allying the partner and everyone (player and the characters in the game) votes individually without knowing who voted for what until the results are shown. can you imagine if you chose to ally with someone and they chose betray?? my heart will break because i trusted that fucker. but so far all the people i ally with allied back which is good for my emotional health. plus, this game has 24 endings so i guess i'll have to vote against different partners to see where it'll lead me. pretty twisted, yeah.

at this moment in time, my flatmate (unsure which one) and her friends are making a lot of noise outside my room. i hope they don't trash the fucking kitchen because i love a clean kitchen and i actually fucking clean the table. i claim ownership of the damn table. lol as if i can. they really need to stop screaming and learn how to be a little civilized.

i did some weightlifting today and practiced on my bouncing. now my right leg hurts right where i fell on when i was like 8 or 9. LOL i feel like my legs are getting stronger, though. and my arms are rounder in a good way.

i'm craving for the kfc hot wings for some reason. maybe i should get them for lunch then watch a movie tomorrow before dinner. i wanted to watch a play but nothing interests me. maybe i should watch why him? or sing. hmmm.

eventless day.

apart from my meals there really weren't anything interesting that happened today.
i made french toast for breakfast again because my bread is expiring and i have a feeling that i probably said this before LOL.

don't this look yummy?? it wasn't bad at all. strawberries and peanut butter in between the layers. hot peanut butter has a different taste which i really like, i recommend!

in the afternoon i went to the femsoc meeting, which was ok i guess. there was a new member and she was savage as fuck based on her stories on how she protested against the fucking pickup artist hahaha i respect.

i also received my danganronpa games in the mail today!!!

so now among all the games, only need for speed most wanted isn't here yet. maybe it'll come tomorrow! i'll check my mail again.

well then after the meeting i made dinner. it was pretty ok.

i call this the fake moroccan chicken and peas orzo. i know it looks like rice but it's really just a kind of small pasta. i could've done better but it was my first time so i PASS! it really wasn't bad though i just forgot to time my cooking LOL i was so distracted.

anyway i ditched my dungeon hunter game and decided to start virtue's last reward. again, i was so distracted now i only got past the first mission LOL i need to try harder.

no game in my post today.

highlight of my day, really.

actually NO what the fuck! this morning i got woken up by a noise outside my door at 324am, it was my flatmate's friends screaming all the shit. i'm pretty sure they were drunk and they were loud and inconsiderate as fuck. and my flatmate didn't even bother trying to ask them to volume down. i remember one instance last time, at least that flatmate tried to ask her friends to be respectful although they didn't listen. this time, i even knocked on my wall twice to notify them but they gave 0 fucks. fuckers. i was furious.

anyway an update on the concreteness and gender thing. the lecturer emailed back and cleared things up for me, though i still feel like things are a little foggy since this module is all about perception and interpretation LOL but i'm glad she didn't avoid the question.

before i went for the movie, i had lunch at a vietnamese cafe that i've been meaning to try. i had beef vietnamese pho and spring rolls. i thought the spring rolls were prawn but it was meat and i didn't know what meat it was, i still don't to be honest hahaha but i don't really care because it's tasty as fuck. the beef noodles in malaysia tastes better though.

 the amount of beef in there was unbelievable.

these springs rolls were the bomb i gotta say. after i left the cafe i smelled like food. i should go back and try the bahn mi out.

then i watched a monster calls. what a sad movie. it's sadder to think that it was actually a children's book about cancer and death and all that. i think a child doesn't deserve to think about the dark things in life yet. [SPOILERS] it's so sad that the kid was conflicted by his thoughts of wanting his mom dead because of the suffering, yet not being able to deal with the thoughts. i was at that position once although that person wasn't an immediate family member. it really sucked. i cried my eyeballs out.

i've got loads of movies i plan to watch in 2017! it's a good year for movie-watching. i wanna watch hidden figures, the boss baby, loving, fences, resident evil, and of course beauty and the beast! oh my beloved emma watson!!! can't wait! everything releases a year later in the UK. such fuckery.

anyway i thought i'd be getting a game today but apparently i didn't :(  at least that means that'll be getting more than one game tomorrow! if that logic works hahaha. i should really be reading the books i bought last year but i really can't take my hands off my games. i guess i love the idea of reading but not exactly the execution of it LOL if anyone is curious about how lazy i am.....

this is what i'd do to avoid heading to the kicthen just to wash up a plate so i'd rather eat sandwich off a piece of aluminum foil. in fact, it makes everything easier for me because i've got nothing to wash up apart from my cup which i can do in my bathroom.

rakuten has a 10% sale and i'm so tempted to get everything from fromjapan.co.jp but i can't because i've spent too much on shipping alone LOL. and i really wanted to play with my vita today but it totally went out. i'm sad.

5 times.

today was a very very long day.
my first lecture of the day was at 9am. thankfully, the subject is interesting enough for me to keep listening to the lecturer. i even think this module can cause a mild existential crisis with all the mind vs. body thing, is the world only made of matter? or is everything just what we perceive to be true?? and we even talked about the existence (or lack thereof) of the mind. or the only thing we can be sure about is our own existence as long as we have thoughts and the ability to think. even if this is all a dream, because our brain is thinking during a dream, we still exist. descartes said, "i think thereof i am". i think it was descartes. the lecture caused me a massive headache and an existential crisis.

i tried taking a nap before my 3pm class but i failed. the floor was too cold. so i went to this 4pm language and meaning seminar, talking about concreteness (as in how tangible something is) and one of the nouns we had to justify was "woman". one thing though, is this in a very cisnormative sense?? like, what constitutes a woman? if it's tangible i assume it's body parts? but if you are talking about arms and legs, wouldn't ALL humans have that?? i just think what makes a woman a woman is how comfortable you are identifying as much. that means it's not tangible anymore is it??? i might just email the lecturer and ask. hopefully she won't freak out LOL (i just emailed her halfway through blogging)

oh i got virtue's last reward in my mailbox today hahaha i have a feeling i'll be getting a game every day until friday. it's like a gift from myself to myself and of course it is i, who paid for them. i read online about the game and apparently this game has like 24 endings, and i have to play it on the hardest difficulty to unlock all of the endings hahaha fuck my eyeballs.

in my mailbox.

and i finally restarted my muay thai membership! i fell on my ass 5 times because we had this move where we've got to hold the partner's leg and turn or jump, while bouncing on the other leg. my ass was too heavy i fell 5 times. but that wasn't the most painful part. after we learnt a foot sweeping move (very cool move, it's called a monk bla bla sweep the long or something, translated from thai), my partner missed the side of my foot and stepped ON my foot instead. you know the feeling when your skin on the top side of your foot almost tore off because of how soft it is? that's how i felt. it even left a bruise omg.

it's the weird spots on the left. what the fuck my foot also looks dry as fuck. i need to moisturize. i also got the 2017 awesome t-shirt! i feel pretty awesome about it.

i mean, isn't this awesome?? team phoenix ftw.

oh yeah, i'll also be heading to london on the 4th of march to attend the gender equality march called "march4women" on the 5th. i know it could be a little bit trans-erasing (hopefully not) but hey, even if it's not my time yet, don't mean that i shouldn't support women eh? i wanted to go for the harry potter studio tour again but it's sold out on the 4th and the 5th omfg what is this hell??? i was really looking forward to butterbeer but i guess it wasn't meant to be. so i had to find another way to kill day one, and i ended up booking a ticket for the "a midsummer night's dream" play. i wanted "hamlet" but it's all sold out. WHY IS EVERYTHING SOLD OUT WHEN I'M GOING??? i might get the hogwarts wall plaque before my train back. or i could order it online and have it delivered to me for free, and i get a free box to put in my luggage so it doesn't break when i take it back with me. hmmm i'll see again.

also i hope i'll be able to attend pride in london on the 8th of july! I HOPE!!!

and i hope i'll get to wake up in time tomorrow to watch "a monster calls". i'm knackered.

fucking collages.

oh whew i just got back and took a shower.
at this point this sentence is written, it's 10.26pm. i'm so tired!! this is gonna be such a long post because of all the fucking pictures. and it's gonna be shitter because tomorrow will be a very long day. 9am classes are my absolute favorite that i'd bless the lecturer with my absence. ok no i will go to class.

this morning i woke up feeling so hungry (i feel like i say that everyday lol), i really didn't know what to have for breakfast then i remembered that i stil have my sourdough bread. so i made crunchy toasts that i craved for 2 months ago. that tesco sourdough bread toast wasn't bad, in fact i really liked it. i should've stolen the jam that my ex-flatmate left before she swapped rooms with my current flatmate. but then i thought meh all the sugar. i got too hungry i resolved to having milo and rich tea biscuits. pretty sad. those biscuits had to last me till dinner.

so my lecture was at 3pm. i had time before that so i went online for abit. i ordered something from fromjapan.co.jp last week. and today i got the email for a shipping charge. and the damn shipping was more expensive than the item i purchased LOL almost double the price hahaha oh well i already ordered it anyway. i really loved the gundam figures i ordered. for some reason i have this special place for gundam astray red frame in my heart.

this is the image of the product. isn't it cute! it's the nxedge style model. i've got a destiny gundam one but i threw away the box like wtf why did i do that? i suppose that time i wasn't that particular about the keeping the packaging or maybe i tore it up when i was trying to open the box. honestly i do not remember.

i really think nxedge style models are really cute and they give a different vibe compared to the gunpla models, i mean those are cool too of course. the difference though. look at the difference???

these are the gunpla models! they look way cooler than the nxedge ones but nxedge style models caught my attention. i build gunplas too, actually, though not a pro. since we're on the topic of models i'm just gonna share what other models i purchased...

 yes i got the nxedge gundam wing...

 and the nxedge style omegamon because this gives me feels. it reminds me of digimon world: next order although it's a pretty recent game. but i have FEELS!

then this is alphamon, one of the digimon royal knights. THIS ALSO GIVES ME FEELS because [SPOILERS] kyoko kuremi is alphamon in digimon story: cyber sleuth. UGH which reminds me!! fucking hell i didn't finish the final colosseum cup because i thought i could do it before i fought the final boss but I FOUGHT THE BOSS AND FINISHED THE GAME now i'll have to start again to get the where i was. sad days of grinding.

my psvita physical game collection is also coming alive!! seriously the amount of money i dumped into making myself feel better can probably feed a family of 4. also collecting physical copies of games i completed that i find worthy of having. like danganronpa. yes i bought the physical danganronpa games. within the span of 2 weeks i bought like 7 physical games.

half of them were shipped today and i hope i'll get them before next week. ummm is it bad that i want all the models and games??  i have got more on my wishlist but my brain tells me that i don't have as much money as i imagined. well yeah cause i imagined all the money LOL \m/

then after language & meaning lecture which i don't really wanna talk about because i was distracted by mobius ff most of the time LOL i had dinner at yo sushi. they've got this £2.80 blue plates on monday and i stuffed my piehole with all the food because i didn't have proper breakfast or lunch. i regreted not having a proper meal. totally overloaded on today's calorie quota but whatever. i'm starting muay thai tomorrow. actually now i'm probably a little hungry already...

6 plates of stuff. all vegetarian hehe. i also really want a mcdonald's spicy veggie burger. i said i wanted to have that for lunch today but i stayed in. met up with a friend and their friends who were pretty nice people. they actually game but i was too reserved to ask for their psn ids :( it's ok, i doubt we'll play games together even if i did anyway.

oh yeah i really love this song by nick jonas called "take over". it has very nice tune. i'll just quietly drop the video here.....

also practicing on "close". i hope someone's gonna sing this duet with me because i don't have enough mouths to sing to 2 people. "close was just a word made up by someone who's afraid to get too close" awwww isn't that sad and very relatable. i really can't recommend his "last year was complicated" album enough.

aaaand my wordpress is pretty abandoned lately. i've got some stuff on my mind but i didn't get around writing it down yet. i'll do that soon.

24/1/2017 MOM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
she's not gonna see this anyway but that's what everybody does for attention.

metrocentre less than an hour.

this morning i woke up feeling super fungry and i wondered what i should make for breakfast for half an hour. then i remembered that i still have strawberries i bought like 2 weeks ago so i decided to make french toast stack with rotting strawberries and honey.

don't it look good??? believe it or not this thing here is oil free because of a god-sent utensil called the non-stick pan. i imagined how much better it would taste with butter but i'm on a no-dairy diet so fuck that. and yeah, it's soy milk instead of cow's milk. deep inside i feel like like "ugh bummer" but i try, i try. the strawberries tasted a little weird but i assume it's what a rotting strawberry taste like.

ok just to show off a little bit. i know it's not a super skill and i didn't just learn how to do it 2 days ago... i just love the thrill of expecting the bread to fall outside of the pan but it landed safely in the pan instead. boo.

so after brunch i went to metrocentre to have a look at the game shops there but meh they didn't really have much? it's still pretty cold out there today zzzz. anyway, each game shop only has 1 small section for the vita and they don't even have anything i planned to get. ehh instead i got myself steins;gate 0 because it was on sale so i bought it on impulse LOL it was £34.99 before discount and £20 after! that's cheap as fuck for a new game? in fact it's cheaper than getting it on the malaysian psn store, and it's not even english. this makes me wanna learn japanese just so i can play all the game i have possibly missed out because they don't wanna make an english release :(

the box is sealed so i hope when i open it the game is actually inside LOL i have a confession though, i haven't even started playing steins;gate, as in the first one? what am i doing getting this one??

after walking around looking for more games to no avail, i strolled into a toy shop. no console games or anything, just games like puzzles and stuff. guess what? mx. impulse asked me to buy something from the store because the toy looked very cool.

well, once they're assembled, that is. and i hope once i'm done with the assembly they look at least half of what's shown on the cover. i have fat fingers and these look way more delicate than gundam models. at least those are plastic? these stuff here are just sheets of stuff except for the nanoblock. but i'll save the assembly only for after i go back.

after getting those toys i came back to newcastle. nothing much i could do, really. i was there from about 1pm until 2pm when i thought i could walk around until 4pm and come back just in time for dinner. i wanted to watch a movie but the showtimes were all shit. i'll be watching another movie on wednesday anyway so whatever.

while i was on my way back, i went into forbidden planet because i was attracted by the word "SALE" and "UP TO 75% OFF"; aren't they tempting as fuck?! so out of curiosity obviously i went in and had a look. like OMG i wanted all the board games but then i realized i have no friends. ok i do but i don't really wanna play games with them. just kidding. i might get them next time if i remember and if they're still on sale. i did get something else though. remember i said i wanted to the dragon ball no.4 from anime z? i forgot they aren't open today so i got son goku instead. that solved the itch HAHAHA i also got myself a kingdom hearts figurine keychain that's given on random.

it actually looks pretty cute but i need to get used to the blue hair. it's not bad. 

and i got donald duck for the keychain!! a little bummed, i was hoping i could get the exclusive keyblade or at least a human character but donald's cute too. before my turn at the cashier the person in front of me bought like a pile of these keychains? you're more desperate than me, bud, good luck LOL i wanted to go into another store but i resisted!!! it feels too weird to walk into one game store with a bag of another game store in my hands.

then i got on the journey back to my flat. i really wanted kfc's spicy wings or gyozas. i ended up getting what they call "vegy dumplings" as a snack. IT WAS NOTHING LIKE GYOZA. i kept half of them for my japanese curry udon at night.

eventually i'll have to find a way to ship these toys back because i remember the last time i wrapped them up in bubble wrap and have them fly with me back to malaysia in my luggage, the box was almost destroyed! the figures were fine but i display them in the box?? ugh that sucked so bad.

ummm i think i blogged a little early today? it's just minutes past 4.30pm and i'm already almost done. i have a feeling the rest of my day will be quite boring. do you know what's left to do? cleaning. then it's monday where the week restarts... oh yeah there's a yo sushi discount every monday YAS!

the play where everything went wrong in a right way!

didn't manage to do much today to be honest.

BUT i went to watch a play called "the play that goes wrong". quite literally everything went wrong hahaha! of course everything was planned. the play was very funny and toward the end the whole set was so fucking wrecked hahaha! 4.5/5 stars.

during the interval, this guy who sat beside me just randomly struck a conversation with me, asking me if this was the first time i watched this play. i was like yeah! bla bla bla we talked about where i came from and what his wife does for a living and all that, and i was like cool! my point is... that guy (or his profile, at least) has that zac efron resemblance LOL i had to take a second look just to be sure but no he's not zac efron HAHAHA i wish. he even winked and waved at me before we parted ways and i don't know why i mirrored his actions. yes i winked and waved back at him LOL such fuckery. so much for being gay and all that rainbow shit.

it's pretty cold today as well. down to 1°C. it was 8°C yesterday wtf this world is dying and i blame trump because he doesn't believe in climate change and global warming.

speaking of trump, i just can't believe how ignorant his supporters are. like??? I DON'T EVEN HAVE WORDS FOR THESE PEOPLE????!! you have people arguing that women already have equal rights so why are they protesting like HELLO??? it's because america's about to be led by a shithole like trump?? ok that's enough i'll keep my blog positive.

ok ehem i made herbal tea today! it was great. it was better than the first time i made it actually so i'm happy.

not so sure if this counts as tea but whatever i'm calling it tea anyway.

also i'm still very very very addicted to my gundam breaker 3 (i know it's like the 2864928374th time i've mentioned the game but please i can't really help it). i'll be heading to metrocentre tomorrow, hopefully, to have a look at some games. still thinking if i should get the physical copy of gravity rush cause it's available on the malaysian psn store at a cheaper PLUS it has dlc? i tried the demo and it was pretty cool so i might want the dlc. hmmm maybe if i liked the game enough i could get the physical copy just for collection. i dunno? i'll see about it.

i'll be having french toast for lunch and japanese curry udon for dinner tomorrow. but i'm hungry now fuck!