March.

I'm going into foundation.
And yea, starting over again.

Actually I have many things to say but somehow I can't just express them.

I know it'll be hard for me.
I know it.

Lost.

Deactivated my Facebook account.
Nobody can find me no more.
About reactivating, I'll see about it.
So no more emo status to bother you guys who never wanted to see those kinda stuffs.

I don't know.
But I've done it.
And so I've lose one outlet.
Then who knows.
Maybe I'll lose another one.

Bad bad.

I need someone to slap me hard on my face right now.
I don't even know what the FUCK am I thinking.
I forgot who I used to be.
How happy I was.
Before everything decided to take over my brain.
I feel like going to the hospital Nd get some anesthetics.
Numb and better stay like that forever.

No more

I am going to be an ex HELP student.
Im going for English that's how itll go.
I'm determined this time.

I cried so many times thinking about the people I've let down.
I still do, but things can't change now.
So I'll have to buck up and pull through.

A piece of my mind.

其实认识我的人都知道
平常我不爱被人家请(吃)
是因为感觉上好像他们要还债
所以我请了，除了约好之外都不让别人请

最近会一直让你请我
只是想记得你
即使我的还债感很强
好像你要还清(所谓)欠我的
我压抑了那种感觉
想留下你请过我的记忆

我的脑袋就一直想
也许这已经是你请我的最后一餐
或是我请你的最后一餐
多简单都好
至少我们有最后一次

我想
多年之后我回来了
和别人相处仍然一样
但是和你我真的不想太多了

有现在就把握现在
珍惜能够拥有的每一刻
虽然有时候
我有一种很烦到你感觉
我只不过想多拥有一下下
如果真的烦到你的话
对不起

你在我心中的地位不会有人代替
也不会被人超越
因为生命中
就只有一个你

随时你需要帮助
我会是第一个尽全力的人

我们就为了自己的未来努力吧
那我回来了以后
不会没面子面对你

加油！

Valentines

So what if it's Valentines...
Doesn't matter to me because everything is still the same.

Today I went to college,
On my way, I was thinking of many things,
Thanks to the traffic jam.

As I think of my past and what's present,
I couldn't help feeling a little bit upset,
In fact the feeling came up to my guts.

I felt teary then.

I realized sometimes it's not the effort that counts,
It's the subject you're putting effort into.
Maybe I don't even mean a thing after all I've done.

Heck, nobody forced me to do it so who is there to blame?

It was my choice to begin with and there's nothing I can do about it.

A friend once told me about a feeling,
A feeling where you begin to undergo a transition of emotions,
From caring to letting it be,
Then there goes being bored of caring too much.
Begin to let things slip,
And you refuse to care anymore.
"Whatever."

Any relationship is hard to maintain,
It's something I know.

The harder you try the harder you fall,
As you try harder the hole gets deeper.

Honestly,
I'm tired of being the only one in this.
I'm tired of being the only one stabilizing everything just to watch you screw me up.
I'm tired of pretending that I don't care so why not I just make it real?
"I don't care anymore."

Maybe you're just a passerby in life and I was the one keeping you in my spotlight.
I let my circle of light chase you so that I wouldn't lose sight of you.
Like on a stage you wonder what happens after the curtains were let down?

But there's one thing,
Could I really not care?
No.

Face it.

iOS 5

Im gonna try upgrading my iphone today.
So today is the day i officially lose my jailbreak :(

so after i jailbreak i will go and get it jailbroken again,
or my 60+ apps will be missed forever TT

besides, i wanna be IN
so i will upgrade it
hopefully my phone wont hang gei -.-
and then im gonna be Techno Savvy #4

speaking of upgrading,
my psp is like abandoned
omg no game lo
actually got game but really no time to play :(

my phone is syncing right now
i hope it wouldnt explode

ok see u