The other side

sometimes i *blank* you so much
sometimes i feel like i can't *blank* without you
you *blank* inside of me so deeply you kinda infected my brain

i know i seldom say these sentences
i never appear this way

then
i realize how hidden i am
really.

i never tell anyone about my problems
ok fine i tell certain people
but not all of them

even if i tell
it wouldnt be a complete story anyway
i was being that way since who-knows-when

but i know sometimes its annoying to be so down around people
so i practically always laugh at things, laugh at myself
i even joke with my problems
and people thought that i was ok

so when i dont talk,
DON'T make me
cause u know how down or upset i might be

recently
many shits happened to me
bad shits

but to let u guys know
im glad to have all of you in my life
and those who arent,
your lost ! :)

p/s: i really do *blank* you.