The other side

sometimes i *blank* you so much
sometimes i feel like i can't *blank* without you
you *blank* inside of me so deeply you kinda infected my brain

i know i seldom say these sentences
i never appear this way

then
i realize how hidden i am
really.

i never tell anyone about my problems
ok fine i tell certain people
but not all of them

even if i tell
it wouldnt be a complete story anyway
i was being that way since who-knows-when

but i know sometimes its annoying to be so down around people
so i practically always laugh at things, laugh at myself
i even joke with my problems
and people thought that i was ok

so when i dont talk,
DON'T make me
cause u know how down or upset i might be

recently
many shits happened to me
bad shits

but to let u guys know
im glad to have all of you in my life
and those who arent,
your lost ! :)

p/s: i really do *blank* you.

Useless piece of..

Can I just die and leave everything behind?

It's all said and done

Well it happened harder than I thought.
It went better than I thought.
I am stronger than I thought.

Crying don't mean you're weak.
Crying just mean...
You're crying out some space for more things to come in.

Errr yea I cried.
It's easy for me to cry.
It's difficult for me to hold it back.
But it ain't impossible you know?

What we need to do is to get over it.

Done.

I've made my decision.
It feels weird but I do feel better.