MOANAAAAA!!!!

so i decided to watch moana OMGGGGGGGGG 10/10 seriously.
i cried so much to the point my head started hurting halfway through the movie don't ask me why because i don't know why my head hurt too.

the message in the movie was great!! i love the identity searching and rediscovery theme that was going on throughout the movie. sometimes the monster you are trying to destroy just needs saving. sometimes you think you aren't you anymore because you lose something important to you but you can only be if you think you are. sometimes it's ok not to have everything figured out as long as you feel like you are heading the right way. eventually things will work out, eventually.
maybe i should say that to myself hahaha

the damn chicken in the movie was so damn cute. the moment i walked out from the cinema i went and got the chicken plushie from disney store LOL

this chicken is so damn relatable. just confused with everything in life hahaha! i had hot chocolate with heihei

and now it's hanging on my notice board because i couldn't find a proper space to keep it HAHAHAHA fucking chicken

anyway before the movie i had lunch at turtle bay, a nice carribean restaurant that i really like. apparently it's newcastle restaurant week so i got myself a 3-course meal for 15 pounds! i love their dumplings but somehow today's dumplings were a little tougher :(

 some deep fried white bait with flavored mayo and lime.

 goat curry with dumplings and rice! the goat is so tender though, i expected otherwise to be honest?

bread and butter pudding with rum (hehehe) with vanilla ice cream. i know i said i wanna cut dairy but i felt so good today i decided to postpone my dairy diet until tomorrow. DON'T JUDGE ME i already feel bad about it that i skipped dinner but mostly it's because i'm still pretty stuffed from lunch LOL

i was scrolling through my photos and somehow i took this photo by accident? it's a nice photo to describe how i feel after eating all those food.

i mean, this photo screams "WHAT IS HAPPENING??" and it reminds me of this LOL

how apt.

after lunch i wanted to walk off the stuff i just ate so i strolled into anime z and as expected i failed to come out empty handed because i just wanted to buy all the figures.

 my spoils of the day.

 anzu mazaki from the original yugioh series. so tempted to get the others as well but they only have her, mokuba, and honda left. i wanted the red eyes one so bad. anzu is still very cute!

yamato ishida from digimon and the fucking siren monokuma from danganronpa's ultra despair girls. the reason i got this monokuma was because i hated it so much in the game i had to buy this HAHAHA the real thing look smaller than the photo because of the angle i took it from. they're both very cute though. now i just need to find a way to hang them in my cabinet back at home...

oh yeah i wanted to cash in 15 pounds worth of coins and while rummaging through my coin pile i found this!

i think it's a limited edition? i don't know but i'm keeping it because it looks special.

and what the fuck, i cashed in 15 pound worth of coins, went for lunch, and they gave me my 5 pound change in coins LOL i guess what's meant to be is meant to be.

and FUCKKKK i'll be seeing rose and rosie!!!!! OMG HIOWEFHOUHDD i'll be going to the one on the 26th of april in glasgow. i've got everything booked, tickets and accommodation and shit. i even selected the meet and greet package OMG i hope i get to say something without tripping on my words. i have about 3 months to worry about that. but for now i'll have to worry about my assignments LOL ehhh fortunately one paper is due on the 6th of april, the it's 2nd of may, and my dissertation on the 4th of may.  i just hope that by the 26th of april i'll already have them done 3 quarters way through.

oh wow times flies! after i get my dissertation and assignments done, if i don't fail i'll be graduating from my degree! aaaaand it's already almost february. oh woooowowowowowowoooooow.

ugh my head still hurts.

failed onigiri

i actually wanted to blog since tuesday but i forgot LOL so much for a new year's resolution, can't even keep up with the resolution of the day

anyway i went to my second module's first lecture on tuesday.
the module was language origins and evolutions; pretty cool to be honest. it's not just about history and all the boring stuff, it's more like a mixture of many aspects. we gotta know about human history (as in how we got around becoming Homo sapiens, not who invented the first sandwich) and also the human brain and mind, mind vs matter, where people argue about whether what we experience is absolute or just so because we perceive it that way, or the world is just matter? a very good module to induce existential crisis, i must say.
i also skipped my very first language and meaning seminar because i forgot to read the stuff the lecturer sent me hahaha another reason was my laziness.

yesterday after i handed in my report (which i actually managed to finish but still lack over a hundred words haha) i went for lunch at grainger market and i forgot that i shouldn't take yogurt so i fucked up in that sense haha but that only happened once I PROMISE. it was a good reminder. i've decided to cut dairy completely from my diet for at least 120 days and if my skin improves. so wish me luck although i fucked up with the yogurt.

i was walking around and went into GAME, planned to only browse but somehow accidentally bought 2 games hahaha they were pre-owned but they were so worth it cause in the malaysian psn store you only get the japanese version of these games. plus i get to have a physical copy and they are also cheaper, so i don't really mind that it was pre-owned.
the guy at the counter gave me the game box and art book but actually forgot to put the game so i had to go back and get it after realizing the moment i got back LOL

i even got the limited edition steins;gate; i heard it's a great visual novel game so i can't wait to give it a try. if it's good i might even get the sequel. army corps of hell on the right, a game you control your goblin minions or something to do something to something else LOL i really don't know yet.
i also kind of plan to get more games ike gravity rush, virtue's last reward, and earth defense force 2 (i know this game is shit but it's shit in a good way for me) but i figured i should at least finish the other 5 games i haven't finished. how do i do that though when i'm still very stuck with gundam breaker 3???? i haven't even unlocked the final difficulty like wtf.

i also saw that digimon world: next order for ps4 is finally out. i'm sad. i really wanted the english release to come to psvita but instead it only came to the ps4. at least i know mandarin and finished the mandarin version along with the dlcs so i have no regrets. still a good reason to get a ps4 though. not sure if i said these before but i'll say it again anyway hahaha.

apart from games i also walked into HMV, which i usually do when i feel like i need to get some music. no actually i wanted to find nick jonas' album in particular hahaha so i went and had a look. i managed to snatch the last one available on the shelf YASSS also got the UK version of adam's trespassing. all is good.

i think nick jonas is really cute (i know i said i'm gay hahaha but pls) and i really like his music style. i like his beats and tunes though the lyrics are a tad bit simple. but seriously though, he's got to open his mouth when he sings otherwise the voice projection isn't good enough. like, what's in there? or is he afraid that a fly is gonna go in???  it's how he has always sung i guess LOL doesn't bother me that much anyway since i only listen to his music. good music.

before i came back (again) i stopped by the theatre royal to get some play tickets and with my 'friends' membership i got good seats at great prices so i'm happy because of that too. pride and prejudice is a classic so i hope it's good as a play. also got a ticket for the curious incident of the dog in the night-time, a story about autism and stuff, i forgot what exactly but something like that, heard it's good too. i also have a play to attend this saturday and sometime mid march. aren't i civilized and very english. day 874 they still haven't noticed. HAHAHA just kidding i'm easy to notice as fuck. fucking chinese.

uhhh i also met up with my dissertation supervisor and she seemed more interested than last time. we got to talk about, well, i got to talk about my views about gender and i'm glad she understood what i was saying haha it's one step closer toward changing the world LOL always dream big.

and when i was sleeping the damn fire alarm went off at 324am like dude (whoever you are) wtf were u cooking at that hour and can't you at least not create too much smoke that you set the fucking alarm off??

didn't do much today apart from gaming (what's new) and eating (what's new).
well there was a little mental health awareness society talk around 5pm my time. i learnt loads of useful things and it really gave insight on what dementia is. it's not just ONE disease, it encompasses many conditions and one of the most common one is alzheimer's disease. i got a little sad halfway through the talk because i imagined it must have been hard for the patient and the caregivers to deal with such situations. one thing i have gathered from the talk is that connection is very important in order to minimize the difficulty in interaction with the affected persons; their memories, sense of security, sense of belonging, and their certainty (however they perceive thereof) of the world probably all lies in how they connect with their world, and in my opinion, it is what they are losing when they are affected by dementia. what got me real bad was "it's really just their brain dying" and i couldn't help but tear a little bit. i'm just an emotional piece of trash. at least it's good that i learned something today.

i came back to make myself an onigiri and a bowl of miso soup for dinner. i cut the chicken so big it didn't fit in my rice ball so i ended up eating a huge umeboshi rice ball in my left hand while eating the chicken out of the pan with my right. i also didn't make my miso soup because i was standing by the stove until i was done eating and it was quite messy i didn't want to take anything into my room. but i have to say the umeboshi rice ball was great with the soy sauce chicken.
i originally bought the umeboshi paste and sushi rice to make the chaliapin steak don as featured in shokugeki no souma but i've got no steak or butter LOL i'll do that next time.

as for tomorrow, i plan to go watch a movie and grab hot chocolate (with soy milk, duh). not sure if i should watch moana or a monster calls, or something else. i don't know yet but i'll see tomorrow. wanted to take the train to metrocentre to watch a movie and have a look at the GAME store there but meh moana's showing's either at 1045am or 130pm, both a little too early for me. UGH I DON'T KNOW.

first day of final semester

oooh so today is the first day for the final semester of my degree life.
i only have classes on monday and tuesday (skipping the fadss class on thursday forever) so i guess my schedule is pretty loose, though i do have tons of shit to do since it's the final semester of the final year and all that shit, like dissertations and 3000-word essays. but i guess it's what's expected.

remember i talked about needing to finish an interim report? at this point i still haven't done that shit hahaha though i only have 200 words left to do. even at the time i'm writing this post i'm still in the midst of bounty hunting on gundam breaker 3 LOL what even is uni. i should do a simple workout and shower but NO i still got my ass in front of my laptop, my vita, and my phone at the same time. i'm also playing a game on my phone hahahaha fuck

ehhh the lecture on language and meaning (one of the modules i'm taking this semester) was pretty boring. i liked the content though, got me thinking for a bit. now i'm just dreading the other module, language origins and evolutions. like, what??? i've got some reading to do for tomorrow though.

hmmm some people asked me what i am planning to do after uni and i seriously have no idea. like i've got nothing planned apart from
i was about to say dinner but i don't even have dinner planned hahaha so i guess that shows how unplanned i really am. well except for some days.

and i think i am not full from dinner about 1.5 hours ago. i wonder if i should snack on biscuits later? why am i even asking this question here like is anyone even gonna answer me....? IS ANYONE EVEN READING THIS SHIT LOL i guess i'm just blogging to pop things out of my brain.

... i think i forgot something i wanted to put in here but i really can't recall............

After 4 years.

oh wow my last post was 4 years ago?
how abandoned is this blog?? LOL

well i'm just gonna type up some shit to update the blog for fun, i mean it's been a long time.
what's up? nothing much, cause everything is pretty much going down hahaha

been really busy gaming although i have other objectively more important things to do, like my final year dissertation interim report.

i've been so hooked on gundam breaker 3 i can't even think of playing other games for now. only the breaker series though, not other gundam games. but because of the game i bought the plastic models to assemble and i think i have quite steady hands. i think after building a couple more small ones i shall move on to a bigger one, then eventually learning how to paint.
who knows, i can say this now and after a couple of months i stopped giving a fuck about anything gundam hahahaha

speaking of final year, i'm actually going to graduate in about six months omfg like time flies.
i still remember the first day i stepped onto UK's soil and breathed in UK's air, everything felt so new.
now i'm on my way to becoming unemployed and poor, living off my parents money, which i have been doing for 23 years so i guess nothing is new about that HAHAHA

well apart from that i'm listening to nick jonas recently, i guess that's ok. i like his music style, reminds me of taeyang from bigbang LOL i suppose that's what u call a 'type' HAHA ironically i'm gay. but to satisfy my gay side i still have my S.H.E, girls generation, and emma watson (CANT WAIT FOR BEAUTY AND THE BEAST THO what the fuck). though tbh im gay for almost anything in this world apart for butterflies cause they suck. literally and figuratively. so fuck u butterflies.


ehhhhh i guess that's pretty much it?
not a lot to fill in for 4 years LOL actually i'm just too lazy to type everything out.
u see what i mean??? i have a fucking 1000-word report to do and i'd rather spend time writing this shit that already has 400 words. i need to sort out my priorities.

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It seems that I have never come to terms with my own feelings.
It was simple. Too simple I over-interpreted it.
I denied what stirred inside me.
But this time around I want to accept it; a punch right at my face.
The complexity of this simplicity is too overwhelming I need time to get out of denial.
Yes, I was in denial.
I thought I could walk away; I thought I could throw it all away.
Forget about it.
Just too bad.

In all weirdness

Wow for about 2 months i didnt update my blog hahaha
but its 2am now when i started typing this

these days i just feel like i wanna drive in the middle of the night and enjoy the empty streets
listening to music and start thinking about life and things around me

and im getting broke because of all the photobooks im buying wtf
3 photobooks from fansite and 1 memorial photobook zzz
and even 1 fanclub shirt
but its ok, i save for all those LOL

btw, asia super showcase(ASS) got postponed (soon-to-be cancelled zzz) like TWO fucking days before the actual event,
seriously ASS man!
they blame it on elections and the security of the nation
like wtf malaysia very safe ok, even rally also book stadium although is a bit jam
this event management company very famous for postpones and cancellations zzz
many ppl complain before maybe they are used to it already nvm lo
i can't see my Girls' Generation because of them UGH

S.H.E coming to hold a concert in july :D
and it's exactly on my birthday TT
WHEN IS MY BIRTHDAY??
ok nobody will answer because nobody is reading zzz but i still post for fun
it's 20th july hehehehehe

recently i joined a gym
this gym has punching bag which is something i really like because i can go and punch whenever i feel angry
but the thing is, if i punch punch punch, my finger skin will terkopek and hurts like hell when i bath zzzz
so im getting a punching glove soon
quite interesting

and also i got my other wisdom tooth removed 1 week ago,
my face swollen like kena punch (karma?)
but now already reduce by alot
shit make me unable to sing -.-.-.-.-!!!
recently ok abit

errrrr what else?
oh yeah im in my final semester of foundation
so friggin busy
so many events to do but so little time and stuck with the same people even for different subject D;
nvm, it's gonna be over.. SOON
after that im gonna chase after my dreams of languages and arts

one more is,
i think it's coming back again :C
this weird feeling zzz
i hope it goes away soon!

and my latest korean exam got 95 hehehe show off here nobody see anyway